diary of an unhappy uterus | part one.

have an unhappy uterus, and it impacts my everyday life. I’ve tried to ignore it and hide it for several years, I’ve blamed myself for over-reacting, and I’ve tried to persuade myself it was normal. Meanwhile, behind the lies I told myself and others, I’ve been struggling with episodes of intense pain ever since I got my first period, and it’s getting worse.

So, I’ve decided to document it; meet, The Diary of an Unhappy Uterus, or TDUU, which my personal journey suffering from an unhappy uterus. I have been hesitant to share this. I’m afraid of backlash. I’m afraid people will think I’m weird or gross, but I guess everyone has an opinion on everything, so I may as well share my story, if it means I can make others feel less alone.

I have spent a long time and a lot of money trying to seek help for my unhappy uterus, and I still don’t even have a diagnosis. Unfortunately women’s health is extremely under-represented in the medical field, and because of this I, and many others, have been shut down by medical professionals when trying to seek help. I’ve been refused treatment, told I was just constipated, told I was just having a ‘bad period,’ and told that it’s something women just have to ‘deal with.’

After 6 years of suffering I finally have an appointment with a Gynaecologist on Wednesday, and I am hoping to get some answers. I suspect I have Endometriosis and Adenomyosis, but no one has ever confirmed it. I’m exhausted, both physically and mentally from trying to find out what is causing me so much pain.

Throughout this series, I’ll be sharing my story, as well documenting any new turns and twists that come my way. I’ll probably share some tears and some laughs, but more importantly I hope I’ll share some moments that will make us feel less alone.

Next up in the series will be my first trip to the Gyno. I'm dreading it, but also excited for it. It's a step in the right direction.